Is this what learning to be patient is?
Is this what learning to be patient is? It’s been 3 weeks since my neck surgery and while I am not in very much pain and can move about, I have no energy and my drive to run a business, or even own one at all, has dwindled.
This moment in my life is not about time management or organizing. This moment is about healing and rest. But for someone who has always been the energizer bunny, this is not the real me. It’s horribly difficult not to be out with people, completing tasks, and being productive.
Productivity is in the eyes of the beholder. To me productivity means gaining ground on whatever it is that needs to be.
Patience Susie… patience…
Someone asked a group question on one of my lists and part of my response was: I still don’t even know exactly what I want to be when I grow up.
I have all of this knowledge, TONS of knowledge and experience and yet I feel like I’m stuck or moving in slow motion.
Shortly after posting, I was going through my email. Because I get a ton of spiritual emails I can’t open them all. But today I opened one of the Joel Osteen emails and here is what it said:
“For the vision is yet for an appointed time…though it tarry, wait for it…” (Habakkuk 2:3, KJV) Thanks God!
This patience thing is SO SO hard! Some days I get so tired of waiting, feeling like I’m missing something. And by something I mean, maybe God’s telling me or showing me “something” and I don’t get it. Or maybe He already gave us the path and we didn’t see it. Those kinds of somethings.
And if HE’s calling me/us to stay where we are, then I’m not happy about it. But, I’m waiting and trying to be patient Lord.
Aside from school papers, things are going well. I feel better getting up and out at school. The stairs help give me exercise, a need that’s different from physical therapy. I am grateful for healing… Patience and perseverance.